Gardening: The Joy of Frustration

This year, I have a real garden! It's huge!
Okay, it's 65 feet by about 70 feet, but that seems huge to me. The biggest garden I've had before this one has been about 20 feet by 10 feet.
This new garden is a huge challenge. My mom tilled it for me with her tractor, but I've had to pull out grass, roots, and weeds from the loose soil since then. I laid out the areas for different plants Tuesday, and then pulled out more weeds. This morning, I created all the rows for the corn, radishes, peas, and carrots. I have many more rows to do.
The process is tiring.
I rake up areas into long ridges for the rows, then I pull out all the loose weeds and roots that I can find, and pull out tons of potato sized rocks. Then I re-rake them up to make them even. I take all the rocks, with a wagon, to a growing pile. I'm going to make a rock wall with them, eventually. All the weeds go into a big compost pile... then I do more rows, until the wagon is full again. I do this over and over, and eventually, I will have all the rows and mounds done. As I get a section done, I plant seeds. So far, I only have one type of corn done, though.
And, I have to water and water, to make the seeds germinate. The hills help keep them from rotting because of too much water, but will allow their roots to have plenty of space to grow into the soil as the plants get hardier when they grow. The hills also help keep the soil at a warm enough temperature for things to go well.
I actually started with a chart I made on graph paper over the winter, with rows laid out based on plant height, spacing, sun, and water needs. I lost that chart, and had to make another. Well, I suppose I didn't HAVE to, but I like it when things are planned.
Every couple of days during the growing season, I have to weed and water, depending on the rain. It's work that leaves me so tired, I don't even come online except from work.
It feels good, though, like I'm doing real, honest-to-goodness work.
I notice the more I've been doing this, the less seizures I am having. Nothing really upsets me, and what little bugs me a bit quickly goes away when I'm out working in my garden.
It's frustrating that I seem to grow rocks the best, followed as a close second by weeds, but I will persevere. I am going to enjoy getting to eat all sorts of fresh hand grown veggies with no sprays, chemicals, or wax on them. I am going to enjoy learning to can them, so I can store the extras and eat them over the Winter.
I love this season!

Newsweek Article - The Mystery of Epilepsy

At 24, I started having seizures, I thought. Medical testing and time showed that I'd always had seizures. Before that time, I always thought seizures meant falling on the ground and convulsing. I didn't understand that seeing fuzzy lights could also be a seizure.
I'm really glad this article came out, and was the cover story. I want people to know and understand that there are many kinds of seizures, and each and every one disrupts our lives. Epilepsy is also lifelong, like diabetes. I'll never get away from it. Someday, I'll probably have surgery. I'll be letting someone cut and remove part of my brain. I'm terrified of this, and yet, it's my only chance to be seizure free. I want to be able to live my every day life, and not have to have these constant interruptions, the constant fear of another. I want to be able to someday say I no longer have epilepsy.
I hope this article helps the world see how desperate the need is for research funding, so someday maybe people won't have to struggle through their lives that are punctuated by seizures.